Like books, our lives, (or at least MY life) has chapters. And here I am, closing one chapter of my life and starting a new one.
For those of you that have followed this blog, you know that my, what I deemed sabbatical, began 9 months ago almost to the day. (Go ahead, click here and stroll down memory lane) I pulled my car to the side of the proverbial road of life and I took a break. As much as I would like to say I took the last 9 months doing something productive, like, learning a new language or, gestating a child, I did not. I partied. And I partied my ASS off! And if I wasn’t partying, I was recovering from said party by staring blankly out the window. What a waste!, one might think. And admittedly I thought that from time to time myself. If in January I knew I would have been going back to work in October, I may have traveled. Or taken a class. Or I would have done…something. I should have, could have, would have. Bleh! Hindsight and the whole 20/20 thing. We all know it’ll make you crazy.
But you know what…my life in 2010 has been at the complete opposite end of the spectrum of what it was in 2009. I decided a few months ago, as I was fending off the veil of depression that was looming, that I would hold my head high, and be proud of the fact that I worked hard to afford myself the luxury, productive or not, of a 9 month hiatus. SO “F*ck responsibility”, is what I said and partied on.
OK, time to be honest. I had visions of a dramatic “chapter closing” blog entry but now that I’m sitting here, it feels forced. Me being physically where I am right now is a BIG deal for me. HUGE. I have shared this sentiment with a few already, but this is the perfect end to a, ummm, to a very…pivotal (?) no, that’s not it. To a very…what’s the word? *sigh*. I would have been fine landing a decent job at home. But don’t you see? The fact that I threw a bunch of stuff in my car and headed North is just the the type of ‘Syonara’ I fantasized about offering to said chapter of my life. The Finger if you will. Yet I remain humble. It’s weird. I am well aware that this opportunity presented itself to me because I was in the right place at the right time. So now it’s in my hands to make this opportunity work for me. It really is that simple. (Duly noted because I am sure I’ll have to reference this post as a reminder of that fact.)
[I am not getting my point across…time to wrap it up.]
There’s a line in Shawshank Redemption that played itself over and over in my head during my drive here today. “I find I’m so excited, I can barely sit still or hold a thought in my head.” Nothing rings more true. I am so, so, SO, excited about this next chapter I can barely contain myself. I only hope I can open my eyes wide enough to take it all in.